Saturday night fun,,,

Currently Saturday night... sitting here with a coffee with hair dye in my hair, covering up my dull, stressed out hair! awesome Saturday night fun! ... not! i should be out dancing!
a) can't dance b) very little friends without young families to look after c)hobbit at heart.

d)working on all things above.

To shed a bit of light on previous, emotional out bust to male friend.. we are meant to be catch up this weekend, text messages and chat's have resumed to 'the old us' but we will see this weekend, im guessing tomorrow now as it's 2030 and haven't heard from him.. time will tell.

Weight watchers this week i gained 1.1kg!!! was a shock, felt like i would of gained but was thinking a lot less than what i did.  I started taking evening primose oil for a bad outbreak of twenties, teenage skin..
other than i evening primose oil, which we think may have made me retain fluid, and a handful on corn chips on friday night, there is no other explanation for my weight gain.  I remained within my points limit every other night... Dieting is seriously like another job... hard work!
with the gain on wednesday night, along with exams and deadlines for studies my life is basically one big stress ball at the moment. am seriously treading to stay above water right now...
how do people manage their stress?
I'm stressing about being stressed!.

After i wash this hair dye out i think it'll be time for some mind numbing magazines and movies on telly...
yay - bring it on..

Killer weekend...

OK. So this weekend has been a killer... and not from excessive weekend activities but by excessive deadlines.

i have sat at my computer from Friday to now, Sunday night, researching for a proposal due Tuesday morning.
Not fun.
And of course when i'm looking for ways to procrastinate i over analyse everything in my life from the dust on my shelves to my non existent life... not feeling to happy at present.

i was just catching up on facebook, blogs and twitter and fell across this beautiful quote...

“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.”

courtesy of http://100daysinbed.blogspot.com/

Totally what i needed to read right now, i am grateful for where i am at the moment and although the light at the end of the tunnel is a little hazy, i kow it is there, i know it is what i hope for and what i dream of so i will get there.. no matter the deadlines.. 

enjoy your week everyone.. 

ps.. i am also on the weight loss journey and intend to update blog weekly with weight tracking but need time to do past 7 weeks of weight watchers meetings ... so stay tuned, it will happen xo

my worries seem so pity compared..

one of my facebook friends shared this amazing story of a truly inspirational guy today which put my worries into perspective..

No Arms No Legs No Worries

This guy is amazing.. and he is only 24! (or 23?) im 25 and connot say i have the courage he has and i have my limbs, which makes me sad that someone like Nick has to do what he does for me to appreciate my life, why can't i learn to appreciate it and me, for how it is?!

at abit of a low point in life right now (as you could of guessed), but bless the friend who posted this today - was just what i needed to pull myself out of my hole, that really is of no significance compared... onwards and upwards i say! thanks nick, you THE MAN!

tomorrow is another day...

my only words are...

today is history (thank god) and tomorrow is a mystery

Awkwardness...

with my new lease on life, i decided to bite the bullet, stop flirting and tell the guy that's been possessing my mind lately how i felt about him...
for me, it had been building up for a few weeks and finally got to the point of no return other than driving myself nuts.. so i gave myself the weekend as a deadline.  with plans set for saturday morning things were looking as tho  they would fall into place, until the weather man decided otherwise. damn it. plans cancelled, frustration grew and out it blurted via text message. ekkk, not so cool.

to my surprise he seemed to take it well, not saying much and i think accepting where i was coming from as far as venting my feelings.  i knew that he wasn't/isn't looking for anything commitment wise so wasn't expecting anything in return but nothing like abit of awkwardness between friends... received a lovely text message later in night saying he thinks so less of me for being straight up, it's all good and he's not worried about it... ??

where to from here, who knows but like they say - You might regret what you do but you will regret what you don't do even more  so no regrets and tomorrow is another day,with that ... 

do what makes you happy.

inspiration...

Today i was reading operation beautiful http://operationbeautiful.com/ which inspired me to start thinking about me and what i want from life and who is going to give it to me.... none other than me...

so today is the day i will start talking to myself in affirmations, sticking a new post it on my mirror (maybe weekly) and positive thinking, because i am me, and if i don't love myself how can i expect anyone else to right?

so from here on in i will be sharing affirmations, touching moments and pictures that will make you smile, think and or ponder for yourself. Starting with ...